Give me the strength to admit when I am weak

This is my new mantra. I have a bad habit of shutting down and shutting off when I feel like I am getting hurt. It is really stupid, I know it is, so I am going to try to admit it more when someone upsets me, but I am already having a hard time just thinking about it! I guess I just want to be superman, and I finally realized that admitting weakness is strength, the strength to show that venerable side. I am pretty open about my life, because I don’t want to pretend that things are just always so great. Still, not having a perfect life is one thing, but saying that I need help, or I am hurt by something…. That seems like an impossible task. I am pushing myself because I realized that but not dealing with the stuff that is hurtful, I am only hurting myself. No one else is suffering, but I cannot seem to simply stop thinking about little instances that upset me. How dumb! I don’t want to be stuck in that stupidity so I am working on it!

I know this whole thing sounds kinda crazy, but I am hoping that by writing it and basically admitting it, that it will keep me honest and working to change this! I have the same theory with forgiveness. If you can not forgive someone then the only person being hurt is you. I am not saying that you should forget things that you know are wrong, but if you can find a way to simply forgive, not forget, I have found that I am able to stop stressing about it. Just a thought!!!!

I head to Houston this week. I leave tomorrow & will be back on Wednesday!
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