OK I thought I would write an entry with just whatever came into my head. I hope it is at least interesting… maybe next time I will try stream of consciousness…..
So it has been really quiet around here lately. Besides hanging out with friends, I haven’t been doing too much stuff. I have decided that I am going to wait to look for a job after I go back to Houston for my next MRI. It is really hard not to get so caught up in concern that something is going to come back. I have decided not to return to school. The fact is that after leaving school, I am now paying on the student loans I took out for a degree I am never going to get. That is frustrating to me! So, now I am trying to think about what I want to DO…. Can I say nothing?! Or something totally nuts like be a backup singer for someone, or replace one of the Dixie chicks?? Do you think there is an opening there??
On another subject, I am having a real struggle with a friend of mine. I have given it a lot of thought and I think I am going to have to treat it as if they are addicted to crack. I have said time & time again, get help, stop doing this, can’t you see it is destroying you? Every time this person gets “clean” they are too weak to stay that way. By standing by and continuing to be disapproving but supportive, am I still enabling them?? Not to mention that it makes me sick and scared constantly and I just don’t think I have the energy for that. But if I am not there who will be? Should I worry about that? It is a dilemma I am struggling with.
It is supposed to snow its ass off tonight… should be interesting!
If you get in contact with someone you haven’t seen in 10 yrs, and you tell them you would like to get together, don’t you think you should actually DO THAT instead of just ignoring them and pretending like you never said that?!?! I mean are you just SOO great or just THAT busy that you can be phoney and no one calls you on it!?!?!
Sometimes people just suck!
Finally, take care of yourselves!!! xoxoxoxoxoxox
So it has been really quiet around here lately. Besides hanging out with friends, I haven’t been doing too much stuff. I have decided that I am going to wait to look for a job after I go back to Houston for my next MRI. It is really hard not to get so caught up in concern that something is going to come back. I have decided not to return to school. The fact is that after leaving school, I am now paying on the student loans I took out for a degree I am never going to get. That is frustrating to me! So, now I am trying to think about what I want to DO…. Can I say nothing?! Or something totally nuts like be a backup singer for someone, or replace one of the Dixie chicks?? Do you think there is an opening there??
On another subject, I am having a real struggle with a friend of mine. I have given it a lot of thought and I think I am going to have to treat it as if they are addicted to crack. I have said time & time again, get help, stop doing this, can’t you see it is destroying you? Every time this person gets “clean” they are too weak to stay that way. By standing by and continuing to be disapproving but supportive, am I still enabling them?? Not to mention that it makes me sick and scared constantly and I just don’t think I have the energy for that. But if I am not there who will be? Should I worry about that? It is a dilemma I am struggling with.
It is supposed to snow its ass off tonight… should be interesting!
If you get in contact with someone you haven’t seen in 10 yrs, and you tell them you would like to get together, don’t you think you should actually DO THAT instead of just ignoring them and pretending like you never said that?!?! I mean are you just SOO great or just THAT busy that you can be phoney and no one calls you on it!?!?!
Sometimes people just suck!
Finally, take care of yourselves!!! xoxoxoxoxoxox
1 comment:
Ouch! Sorry, just reacting to your blog. :)
So I hear you might be coming to Florida in June?!! That would truly wonderful. We would have so much fun! Or at least you guys could pretend you're having fun around my crazy kids. Did I mention Imogen is CRAZY?!!! I hope it works out for you guys to come. It would be nice to see you guys for a period longer than a day or two!
One of your friends is addicted to crack?!!! JK It's probably serious and I'm making cracks (sorry) about it. An enabler? I'm not sure if you're qualified as an enabler. Well, yeah maybe it does. Do you watch that show? I forget what it's called. They always use controlled confrontation, support if the person wishes to treat the addiction but are outta there if the person is not willing to seek treatment. You describe that scenario. I guess you can be there to support them when they are, indeed, willing to clean up.
Ah...careers. Yuck. I feel your pain. $ for nothing...um...but not chicks for free either. Okay, that's dorky. But I DO know what you mean (paying for degrees you never finish) and I'm sure MANY other people do too, don't worry about that. They should have a support group.
Anyway, I should go...the girls and I have a playdate at some place where they cram millions of kids into a building with some kiddie equipment and I still have to feed em'.
It's great to read a new blog and know what's up with you.
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